I Live for God. God Lives in me.

There is no one and nothing to blame but me. I gave everything. I dreamed a lot. I hoped so much. And I loved so deep. Now, I have nothing but Nightmares Hopelessness And hatred. But then again, There is no one and nothing to blame but me.  

I've got to call you twice for you to notice me. I've got to speak loud for you to hear me. I'm not important, You care not to me. But this just one time, Please Listen to me, when I tell you that I Love You. (Nothing's changed, I know...)

May mga pangarap talagang ang sarap isipin. kahit paulit-ulit pa. ang masakit lang, alam mong hindi matutupad. sa kabila ng lahat, 'wag mawalan ng pag-asa hintay hintay lang kapatid, baka may mangyaring himala.

Lagi man kitang isipin Ika’y di mapapasakin. Kaya kahit panaginip Ikaw sana’y makapiling.

This is for those people who knew how to love and how to be in pain. This is for those people who were left hanging and those who learned to spread their wings to fly. This is for those people who experienced the birth of love deep within themselves and eventually experienced its death. Yes, no matter how crazy or weird I am, I know exactly how it felt to be left alone in love. Just so you know, this experience had taken a lot of strength and courage from me that I had to ask for donations from my friends.  If you had experienced it already, congratulations because I know you passed the test with high scores (I just know).  I felt it and I understand that it is not easy. No matter what type of situation you were in, it’s just the same, you’ve been hurt because of the greatest feeling of the world, LOVE. While everyone is so happy about loving someone, while everyone is patiently waiting for their true love with high hopes, there you are, despairing, regretting that you...

March 23, 2011 My lips are smiling But my head is aching. My face looks happy But my heart is empty. Yes my heart is not broken anymore, But it is EMPTY. And emptiness is killing my heart.

I forgave you not because the pain is gone. I forgave not because I don’t care anymore. I forgave you because… I still love you and I still care for you. Maybe I’ll just love you this way now. And then maybe as days go by, I’ll forget that you hurt me. And hopefully forget that I love you too. It is because I know you cannot love me anymore the way that I love you now. And so I’ll just pray and wait for that day That I forget everything even my love for you.   February 2011